December 7, 2010
Breakfast: grapefruit
Later Breakfast: 40 oz. celery, carrot, apple, cucumber, cilantro, lime juice.
Lunch: Smoothie: Spinach, orange, lemon, banana, mango, pineapple.
Bowl of strawberries and blueberries
Dinner: Curry Cabbage Salad and Veggie Sandwich.
Snack: A few spoonfuls of Honey! Mmmmmmm!
Today was HARD! I had a mini anxiety thing happen that hasn't happened in over a year! I was at a friends annual church "Christmas Dessert" and I started to feel just a little strange, and then my heart started to race. It all lasted for about a minute or two. I went right through it without a hitch and figured that it must be because of stress and being so busy right now with my husbands birthday coming up and Christmas and my CD getting printed. I also think that it could be a detox thing. I have read that as you detox you retrack old illnesses. I don't know if that's true, but it sure would be nice to make sense of what happened today.
The temptation to quit was SUPER HARD today! When I feel down or depressed about something that has happened I want to eat! I want to eat comfort foods I am used to comforting myself with. My drug...
But, I remained strong. Knowing that I would have to post about it, and talk about it on Thursday night.
I just have faith. Faith that everything is going to work out and that the Lord will and is blessing me. I just have to endure to the end. I am strong and I will do it.
This is just day 7 and they say that it takes 21 days to break a habit.
Well, let's hope so!!
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Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Monday, December 6, 2010
Day 6 of Raw
December 6, 2010
Hard day! I woke up feeling yucky. But had to get myself up and going to get my children off to school. We went to the funeral of my husbands uncle.
I felt kind of sick and grumpy. I can tell that I am missing my "drugs"....I start rationalizing in my head and the voices/demons keep telling me to quit and go out and get something to eat! It's really, really tough! But, what has made me resist? Knowing that I have a meeting on thursday!! I really wanted to "jump off the wagon" today. But, then I thought about how I ALWAYS feel when I've quit in the past. I tried to remember how bad I felt about myself for quitting and how I beat myself up and then fall into the pit of despair and depression.. and it worked!
I'm so proud of myself! I chose raw even through a tough day!
Breakfast: Mango Pudding: Blended spinach and mango.
snack: Rosemary Garlic Almonds and Pistachios
Lunch: Raw Pizza and Pumpkin Pie (at Gingers Cafe)
Dinner: Curry Salad: Green Cabbage, Green and Red Pepper, Red Onion, Raisins, Coconut meat, with a Cashew Curry Cream sauce.
Hard day! I woke up feeling yucky. But had to get myself up and going to get my children off to school. We went to the funeral of my husbands uncle.
I felt kind of sick and grumpy. I can tell that I am missing my "drugs"....I start rationalizing in my head and the voices/demons keep telling me to quit and go out and get something to eat! It's really, really tough! But, what has made me resist? Knowing that I have a meeting on thursday!! I really wanted to "jump off the wagon" today. But, then I thought about how I ALWAYS feel when I've quit in the past. I tried to remember how bad I felt about myself for quitting and how I beat myself up and then fall into the pit of despair and depression.. and it worked!
I'm so proud of myself! I chose raw even through a tough day!
Breakfast: Mango Pudding: Blended spinach and mango.
snack: Rosemary Garlic Almonds and Pistachios
Lunch: Raw Pizza and Pumpkin Pie (at Gingers Cafe)
Dinner: Curry Salad: Green Cabbage, Green and Red Pepper, Red Onion, Raisins, Coconut meat, with a Cashew Curry Cream sauce.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Day 5 of Raw
December 5, 2010
FAST SUNDAY!
Breakfast: water....
Dinner:Broke my fast with a veggie sandwich! It was hard to fast tonight. I defintely am feeling tempted today....It's hard having a "cooked" family when you're raw.....but I know I can do it. I've done it before.
Snack: Pomelo and grapefruit.
FAST SUNDAY!
Breakfast: water....
Dinner:Broke my fast with a veggie sandwich! It was hard to fast tonight. I defintely am feeling tempted today....It's hard having a "cooked" family when you're raw.....but I know I can do it. I've done it before.
Snack: Pomelo and grapefruit.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Day 4 of Raw
December 4, 2010
Breakfast: 2 Bananas
Lunch: Sandwich made with a raw bread that I made using UBraw Ming's recipe, avocado, sprouts, lettuce, tomato, cucumber, cashew mayo, and mustard.
And, a cinnamon pecan cacao truffle!
Snacks: Baby Carrots
Dinner: Spinach, Cranberry, Mandarin Orange, Walnut, Red Onion salad with an orange juice, balsamic, honey, e.v.o.o, salt and pepper dressing.
Busy day!
I went to pick up my first order from Bountiful Baskets at 8 a.m., then I went to pick up a CD, and I did some grocery shopping at The Good Earth, then home to practice with my family a Christmas book we are reading for our ward Christmas party, then went to the baptism of my foster sisters daughter, then off to the rehearsal, and then the party!
I didn't have a lot of time to eat, but felt just fine!
I am feeling wonderful, energetic and vibrant and light and very, very, happy!
I LOVE raw food and how eating it makes me feel!
Breakfast: 2 Bananas
Lunch: Sandwich made with a raw bread that I made using UBraw Ming's recipe, avocado, sprouts, lettuce, tomato, cucumber, cashew mayo, and mustard.
And, a cinnamon pecan cacao truffle!
Snacks: Baby Carrots
Dinner: Spinach, Cranberry, Mandarin Orange, Walnut, Red Onion salad with an orange juice, balsamic, honey, e.v.o.o, salt and pepper dressing.
Busy day!
I went to pick up my first order from Bountiful Baskets at 8 a.m., then I went to pick up a CD, and I did some grocery shopping at The Good Earth, then home to practice with my family a Christmas book we are reading for our ward Christmas party, then went to the baptism of my foster sisters daughter, then off to the rehearsal, and then the party!
I didn't have a lot of time to eat, but felt just fine!
I am feeling wonderful, energetic and vibrant and light and very, very, happy!
I LOVE raw food and how eating it makes me feel!
Friday, December 3, 2010
Day 3 of Raw
December 3, 2010
Weight: 154.4
Breakfast: 6 oz. wheatgrass
34 oz. kale, celery, cilantro, cucumber, broccoli, carrot, apple, lime juice.
Lunch: 3 c. Green Smoothie with Spinach, orange, lemon, pineapple, banana, blueberry, strawberry and Udo's Oil 3.6.9 blend.
Snack: Living Intentions Cilantro Lime Mojo Pistachios & Pepitas. Yummy, Yum, YUM!!!
Feel like I'm detoxing today. Woke up with a sore throat, headache and feverish. But I still taught my exercise class and went grocery shopping..
Dinner: 30 oz. Citrus Bliss: Grapefruit, Orange, Lemon, Lime juice.
Weight: 154.4
Breakfast: 6 oz. wheatgrass
34 oz. kale, celery, cilantro, cucumber, broccoli, carrot, apple, lime juice.
Lunch: 3 c. Green Smoothie with Spinach, orange, lemon, pineapple, banana, blueberry, strawberry and Udo's Oil 3.6.9 blend.
Snack: Living Intentions Cilantro Lime Mojo Pistachios & Pepitas. Yummy, Yum, YUM!!!
Feel like I'm detoxing today. Woke up with a sore throat, headache and feverish. But I still taught my exercise class and went grocery shopping..
Dinner: 30 oz. Citrus Bliss: Grapefruit, Orange, Lemon, Lime juice.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Day 2 of Raw!
December 2, 1010
Weight: Who cares! ( I forgot to weigh myself :p )
Breakfast: 30 oz. kale, carrot, celery, broccoli, apple, cilantro, lime juice.
Lunch: Raw "refried beans" (basically an almond pate with salsa ingredients.) on romaine leaves with salsa and avocado.
Some dates, apple slices and dehydrated apple slices.
Dinner: 30 oz. of kale, carrot, celery, broccoli, apple, cilantro, lime juice.
I went into action yesterday by first, blogging and then setting up a Raw Food Support Group! Yay! We are meeting TONIGHT at my house! How cool is that?
(I had formed a facebook page for raw fooders and just created an event!)
I am excited! Truly! For some reason getting "out of my head", including you and a support group, gives me so much strength! I won't make excuses if I know that I need to be accountable to others. No man is an island, and we just CANNOT make it through this life on our own. I thought I could do it on my own, but I can't. I tried and tried and tried and always let myself down. You know what? It's okay to need you. It's okay to need help. It's okay to need friends and a support group. I'm okay with it now. It's quite a weight lifted from off my head and shoulders (hopefully off my butt too! LOL!) I need others! And it's okay!
That is all.
Weight: Who cares! ( I forgot to weigh myself :p )
Breakfast: 30 oz. kale, carrot, celery, broccoli, apple, cilantro, lime juice.
Lunch: Raw "refried beans" (basically an almond pate with salsa ingredients.) on romaine leaves with salsa and avocado.
Some dates, apple slices and dehydrated apple slices.
Dinner: 30 oz. of kale, carrot, celery, broccoli, apple, cilantro, lime juice.
I went into action yesterday by first, blogging and then setting up a Raw Food Support Group! Yay! We are meeting TONIGHT at my house! How cool is that?
(I had formed a facebook page for raw fooders and just created an event!)
I am excited! Truly! For some reason getting "out of my head", including you and a support group, gives me so much strength! I won't make excuses if I know that I need to be accountable to others. No man is an island, and we just CANNOT make it through this life on our own. I thought I could do it on my own, but I can't. I tried and tried and tried and always let myself down. You know what? It's okay to need you. It's okay to need help. It's okay to need friends and a support group. I'm okay with it now. It's quite a weight lifted from off my head and shoulders (hopefully off my butt too! LOL!) I need others! And it's okay!
That is all.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
On and Off and On and Off
December 1, 2010
I'm back! I have learned so much about myself this past year. I have struggled a LOT with staying raw. On and off, On and off has been the perpetual cycle. Today, I am choosing to be ON!
Why I struggle to stay raw:
1. Eating for emotional reasons. The foods that bring me comfort...bread, chips, popcorn etc.
2. Cooking of my vegan husband and 4 children.
3. Socially. It's just easier (and funner) to go out to eat and eat what everyone else is eating and all of millions of restaurants that offer every kind of food imaginable!
4. It's yummy! It's what I've eaten my whole life (except for all together maybe a year of 100% raw and on and off for 2) It's what I'm used to!
5. It's fast and easily accessible and once in the clutches of "cookedome", which makes me lazy and frustrated and depressed and mad at myself. It's just a perpetual spiral down, down, down and it really hard to get back up. It's addictive and instant!
Okay, so? Excuses, excuses!
What keeps me from loving myself enough to do what is right? WHAT IS IT?!
So, I'm here to figure it out!
Well, what was different about me when I was 100% raw?
Why was I so strong? Strong enough that even being on an all you can eat 5 star cruise I remained 100% raw?? Where did that girl go??
Well, I know she's in there somewhere and I am going to find her!
Let's see,
1. I had just been through an extremely difficult "mystery" illness, scared half to death that I was going to die. Had gone to so many doctors and treatments and I was just filled with fear! THAT was my #1 motivation. To LIVE!
2. I was CONSTANTLY reading a book on raw food.
3. I was writting in my journal, or blogging here when I did a juice feast.
4. I was actively going to support groups or having one in my house. Raw Friends.
5. I was learning how to make so many delicious and fascinating recipes that I wasn't missing anything else.
6. I divorced myself from cooked foods. I could seriously look at all of the cooked stuff and be like, "I loved you once, but I don't want you anymore. I have a new love." I was SO committed, and it was EASY! (I want that back!)
So, Here are my goals to get on and stay on raw!
1. Blog here.
2. Create a support group, I don't know, weekly or biweekly in my home, or here.
3. READ a book or something online everyday about raw food.
4. Focus on completely healing ( I am still not healed from L.S.)
5. Feast on help from you!
6. Keep all of my favorite raw ingredients readily available in my home. (Avocados, pistachios, kale, raw bread on hand)
7. Spend at least 1 day a week preparing more complicated meals (dehydrated stuff like bread, crackers, chips, the stuff I crave cooked.) But keeping it pretty simple, not overwhelming, learning a new recipe each week.
8. Make a juice and smoothie everyday.
9. Keep 2-3 raw salad dressings in the fridge.
10. Always have a big salad prepared in the fridge.
11. Keep soaked nuts in the fridge ready to whip anything up.
So my friends, Will you help me? I've got to find that "Raw Girl" in me again.
I will do it this time! I know if I am accountable to you and not just myself, for now, until I can find "her", I will be able to do it.
Today:
Weight: 159.4 (CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!!?)I was 152 the day before Thanksgiving......
Meals:
Breakfast: 32 oz. kale, carrot, celery, apple, cilantro, lime, broccoli juice.
1 T. Spirulina mixed with 1/4 c. water. (yucky!)
Lunch: 3 c. greeen smoothie: Spinach, banana, pineapple, orange, lemon, blueberries, and strawberries.
Snack: Soaked in sea salt water and dehydrated pumpkin seeds.
1 Pecan Cocao Truffle.
(Gave me a headache...)
Juice: 20 oz. (Citrus Bliss) grapefruit, orange, lemon, lime juice.
Dinner: Raw stuffing (Buckwheat, pumpkin seeds, walnuts, onion, carrot, celery, parsley, green pepper) Cranberry Sauce (Cranberries, dates, pineapple, apple)
I made it through Day 1 with your help! Thank you!
I'm back! I have learned so much about myself this past year. I have struggled a LOT with staying raw. On and off, On and off has been the perpetual cycle. Today, I am choosing to be ON!
Why I struggle to stay raw:
1. Eating for emotional reasons. The foods that bring me comfort...bread, chips, popcorn etc.
2. Cooking of my vegan husband and 4 children.
3. Socially. It's just easier (and funner) to go out to eat and eat what everyone else is eating and all of millions of restaurants that offer every kind of food imaginable!
4. It's yummy! It's what I've eaten my whole life (except for all together maybe a year of 100% raw and on and off for 2) It's what I'm used to!
5. It's fast and easily accessible and once in the clutches of "cookedome", which makes me lazy and frustrated and depressed and mad at myself. It's just a perpetual spiral down, down, down and it really hard to get back up. It's addictive and instant!
Okay, so? Excuses, excuses!
What keeps me from loving myself enough to do what is right? WHAT IS IT?!
So, I'm here to figure it out!
Well, what was different about me when I was 100% raw?
Why was I so strong? Strong enough that even being on an all you can eat 5 star cruise I remained 100% raw?? Where did that girl go??
Well, I know she's in there somewhere and I am going to find her!
Let's see,
1. I had just been through an extremely difficult "mystery" illness, scared half to death that I was going to die. Had gone to so many doctors and treatments and I was just filled with fear! THAT was my #1 motivation. To LIVE!
2. I was CONSTANTLY reading a book on raw food.
3. I was writting in my journal, or blogging here when I did a juice feast.
4. I was actively going to support groups or having one in my house. Raw Friends.
5. I was learning how to make so many delicious and fascinating recipes that I wasn't missing anything else.
6. I divorced myself from cooked foods. I could seriously look at all of the cooked stuff and be like, "I loved you once, but I don't want you anymore. I have a new love." I was SO committed, and it was EASY! (I want that back!)
So, Here are my goals to get on and stay on raw!
1. Blog here.
2. Create a support group, I don't know, weekly or biweekly in my home, or here.
3. READ a book or something online everyday about raw food.
4. Focus on completely healing ( I am still not healed from L.S.)
5. Feast on help from you!
6. Keep all of my favorite raw ingredients readily available in my home. (Avocados, pistachios, kale, raw bread on hand)
7. Spend at least 1 day a week preparing more complicated meals (dehydrated stuff like bread, crackers, chips, the stuff I crave cooked.) But keeping it pretty simple, not overwhelming, learning a new recipe each week.
8. Make a juice and smoothie everyday.
9. Keep 2-3 raw salad dressings in the fridge.
10. Always have a big salad prepared in the fridge.
11. Keep soaked nuts in the fridge ready to whip anything up.
So my friends, Will you help me? I've got to find that "Raw Girl" in me again.
I will do it this time! I know if I am accountable to you and not just myself, for now, until I can find "her", I will be able to do it.
Today:
Weight: 159.4 (CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!!?)I was 152 the day before Thanksgiving......
Meals:
Breakfast: 32 oz. kale, carrot, celery, apple, cilantro, lime, broccoli juice.
1 T. Spirulina mixed with 1/4 c. water. (yucky!)
Lunch: 3 c. greeen smoothie: Spinach, banana, pineapple, orange, lemon, blueberries, and strawberries.
Snack: Soaked in sea salt water and dehydrated pumpkin seeds.
1 Pecan Cocao Truffle.
(Gave me a headache...)
Juice: 20 oz. (Citrus Bliss) grapefruit, orange, lemon, lime juice.
Dinner: Raw stuffing (Buckwheat, pumpkin seeds, walnuts, onion, carrot, celery, parsley, green pepper) Cranberry Sauce (Cranberries, dates, pineapple, apple)
I made it through Day 1 with your help! Thank you!
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