Day 60 - BREAK THE FEAST DAY!

May 1, 2010

Weight:132.2?

Today's Meals:

Water with Apple Cider Vinegar

2 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast: 30 oz. carrot, apple, celery, ginger, chard.

1 strawberry!

Lunch: 1 mango!

Dinner: 30 oz. grapefruit, orange, lemon, lime.

2+ oz. wheatgrass

1 pear.

Today's Symptom's: the phone woke me up at 4 a.m. and I had a very acidy stomach (from chewing food last night...), BM (from the Senna Tea), But overall I feel GREAT!


I've had a terrible couple of days. The tooth extraction and the misery from that, combined with going to the gyno and worrying about that have just been the perfect storm for me.
I started chewing and spitting out more food again as a comfort and distraction.
I gave myself permission because even while I tried to distract and find comfort by going to Women's Conference, church, reading my scriptures and continual prayers, going to the movies and shopping with friends just were not enough to quell the urges for comfort and need for relief!
I also have been feeling that my body has been telling me that it's time to break the fast. My breath is fresh. My tongue clean. Headaches gone. And the energy has been super high. The ONLY thing is the Lichen, which has just put me in a state of sadness and frustration and doubt and worry and anger! I of course rationally know that I need to be patient but it's just been SOOOOOO Looooong and with the agony of the tooth extraction in combination with everything else it just backed me into a corner where I've just felt NO ESCAPE!! I just can't put into words...

I've been using the Perrin's Blend cremes for 2 days now and the women who testified that it cleared up their Lichen said it took 2 months.

So, although I am NOT doing a complete juice feast for 70 days, as the woman with psoriasis did. I have to take about 10 days to BREAK my fast (1 day for every 4 days of fasting) followed, of course, with my raw food diet which is also very healing so, that's just going to have to be ENOUGH!?

On the POSITIVE note.... I am proud of myself!! Yay Me!!!
I juice feasted and water fasted for 60 days!!!!!

I will focus on THAT! What I have accomplished! It's incredible!

I WISH I had medical documentation of what my body really did? I bet it would be amazing to know for a fact what cleansing occurred at a deep tissue, cellular and vascular level. The gall, kidney and liver stones and cysts/tumors/lesions that I may have had unknowingly that dissolved. (We know about the worms!)
The plaque in my arteries and cholesterol levels reduced. All of the chemicals and toxins that were stored in 20 pounds of fat released. The balancing of nerves and hormones and restoration of proper function to the organs. The cleansing and much needed rest of the digestive system. Perhaps even the years added to my life will never be known for sure. BUT, rest assured, these things have happened!

Not to mention all of the emotional healing, release, learning, and observations I have made about myself. REALLY looking DEEPLY into the mirror of my soul, has been worth the effort! ABSOLUTELY!

I LOVE the juices! They will continue to be a part of my daily diet. I definitely want to keep one as a daily meal. Perhaps alternating with a green smoothie or doing both and having one gourmet raw dish at dinner. I look forward to sit-down "fork and knife" dinners again with my kids!

I also want to incorporate fasting and feasting as a yearly "Spring Cleaning". 60 days? Don't know? I've heard that the more often you fast, the less time it takes to detox and cleanse AND the less difficult.

I will fast monthly on Fast Sundays, of course.

I will water fast, if I ever get a cold.

I really think that overall it was hard and awesome! Terrifying and strengthening. I am powerful. I am determined. I am faithful and committed. I am strong. I've been to the depths of despair and have felt the highest joy! I have been scared to death and full of hope.

You see, we do the best that we can, NOT knowing what the outcome will be, having faith in God that HE will do the rest.

Here are some of my scribbled notes on my program from Women's Conference:

"Trust Him enough. He knows what is best for us."

"In ME your joy is full. I've heard (your) cries. I know (your) sorrows. I surely see (your) affliction."

On how to endure through a lengthy trial:

Recognize Blessings.
Focus on Joy.
Love life.
Look forward and trust.
Find joy.

"He can see into the future."

"We can trust the Son of God."

"I am being prepared NOW in THIS life for the next."

"Be Humble, work hard and be patient.

"I am loved."

"Be of good cheer sister, do not fear."

"True inner peace comes from the Savior."


On why we sometimes have to suffer so much in this life. An answer to that question in prayer came as, "God needs brave daughters."

I AM A BRAVE DAUGHTER OF MY HEAVENLY FATHER. He has been, and IS supporting me. He surely does know my sufferings and my afflictions. He WILL heal me.
In Him I trust.

Day 59 - Juice Feast

April 30, 2010

Weight:130.2

Today's Juice's:

1 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast: 34 oz. celery, carrot, apple, mint, ginger, daikon radish, cauliflower, red cabbage, kale.

The Sun is Shining, Blue-Green Algae, probiotic, multi vit. & min., echinacea-goldenseal root.

Lunch: 30 oz. orange, lemon, lime

Juice of 2 coconuts.

1 oz. wheatgrass

Dinner: 28 oz. cucumber, celery, carrot, cilantro, cauliflower, red cabbage, spinach, red leaf lettuce, garlic, ginger, lime, apple.

Today's Symptom's: BM, tiny bumps on my back, a lot of energy.

Going through a hard time emotionally??? Still feel an impatience with the healing....and I don't feel like blogging....

Day 58 - Juice Feast

April 29, 2010

Weight: 130.2

Today's Juice's:

2 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast: 30 oz. celery, carrot, apple, ginger, daikon radish, sunflower sprouts, beet w/greens, parsley.

The Sun is Shining, Blue-Green Algae, probiotic, multi vit. & min., echinacea-goldenseal root.

Lunch: 16 oz. carrot juice

2 oz. wheatgrass

Day 57 - Juice Feast

April 28, 2010

Weight: 130.2

Today's Juice's:

2 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast: celery, carrot, cucumber, mint, kale, beet w/greens, dandelion, apple.

Lunch: 28 oz. Orange, Lemon, Lime

Juice of 1 Thai Coconut

Dinner: 24 oz. celery, apple, cilantro, lime, ginger, kale, broccoli.

Today's Symptom's: coating on tongue, I think some liver and kidney pains, but over all excellent energy!

Perrins Blend Creams came today! Hope they really work!

Day 56 - Juice Feast

April 27, 2010

Weight:130.2

Today's Juice's:

Breakfast: 30 oz. dandelion, beet w/greens, cucumber, apples, limes, cilantro, carrots.

The Sun is Shining, Blue-Green Algae, probioitc, multi vit.& min., echinacea goldenseal root.

Lunch: 24 oz. "Pineorple"

2 oz. wheatgrass (finally got some!)

Dinner: 30 oz. red cabbage, red onion, celery, carrot, parsely, kale, garlic, seasoning, celtic salt, daikon radish, sunflower sprouts.

Today's Symptom's: Tons of energy, some kidney pain, tongue coated.

Doing better emotionally. In a "waiting on fate" kind of mode.

Day 55 - Juice Feast

April 26, 2010

Weight:128.6

Today's Juice's:

Breakfast: 34 oz. carrot, celery, cucumber, kale, sunflower sprouts, cilantro, lime, daikon radish, ginger, apple.

Probiotic, Multi vit. & min., The Sun is Shining, & Blue-Green Algae.

Lunch: 32 oz. carrot, apple, ginger, spinach, kale, parsely, cilantro, celery, cucumber, green pepper, chard, lemon, lime.

Dinner: 30 oz. grapefruit, cara cara, navel, mandarin oranges, lemon, lime.

Today's Symptom's: Still some pain and tenderness from tooth extraction 1 week ago, tiredness, BM, some kidney pains.

I felt great until about 6 p.m. after a full day of shopping with a friend when a strange sensation in my head and tiredness hit me and then a slight headache. I knew I had done WAY too much!

Sat in the massage chair for 15 min. and now plan on getting into the jacuzzi tub with some mineral salts!

Emotionally, I'm having a hard time patience wise. I can go another 15 days right?
Miracles DO happen. And I'm praying for one. Please pray for me. <3

Day 54 - Juice Feast

April 25, 2010

Weight:127.6

Today's Juice's:

Breakfast: 28 oz. celery, carrot, apple, beet w/greens, mint, kale.

The Sun is Shining, Blue-Green Algae, probiotic, Multi Vit. Min., Echinacea GoldenSeal Root.

Lunch: 24 oz. grapefruit, cara cara orange, mandarin orange, lemon, lime.

Dinner: 32 oz. carrot, celery, parsley, alfalfa sprouts, garlic, dill, beet w/greens, green cabbage.

Smooth Move Tea with stevia herb.

Today's Symptom's: Wierd numbness of the tip of my tongue, chest/esophagus tightness upon awakening (but leaves once I get out of bed), runny nose? Jaw still hurting.

I am feeling the need to chew. I feel impatient. I feel frustrated. I feel upset. I have those "demons" telling me I'm just not doing any good here and that it's not working and that I'll never overcome or completely heal and I'm a fool and I'll have to suffer forever. I need to go to sleep.

Ordered Perrin's Blend. I read how it has helped others with Lichen Schlerosis.

Day 53 - Juice Feast

April 24, 2010

Weight:129.2

Today's Juice's:

1 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast: 30 oz. veggie juice

Lunch: 28 oz. grapefruit

The Sun is Shining, Blue-Green Algae, probiotic, multi vit. min., Echinacea Golden Seal Root.

Dinner: 30 oz. cucumber, celery, cilantro, lime, apple, spinach.


Cup of Echinacea Plus Tea with Stevia Herb.

Today's Symptom's:Felt better. Still slight toothache though...dizzy towards the evening.

Day 52 - Juice Feast

April 23, 2010

Weight:129.4

Today's Juice's:

3 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast:30 oz. veggie juice

Lunch: 26 oz. pinorple

Mid-afternooon:16 oz. grapefruit, garlic

Dinner: 32 oz.veggie juice

Today's Symptom's: Misery and pain because I refused to take another Lortab. Had a BM, still have gunky tongue. Some left kidney pain.
Very hard day....

Day 51 - Juice Feast

April 22, 2010
HAPPY EARTH DAY!

Best thing you can do for the Earth is educate yourself about this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QqQVll-MP3I

Buy it and share it with everyone you know:

http://www.amazon.com/Food-Inc-Eric-Schlosser/dp/B0027BOL4G/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s...

Weight: 131.4

Today's Juice's:

2 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast: 30 oz. beet w/greens, celery, carrot, apple, romaine, kale, dandelion, green cabbage, spinach.

Lunch: 28 oz. grapefruit, orange, lemon, lime, distilled water.

The Sun is Shining, Blue-Green Algae, Probiotic, Echinaecea Goldenseal, Multi vit. and min.

2 oz. wheatgrass

Dinner: 34 oz. celery, apple, carrot, cilantro, chard, kale, beet w/greens, cucumber, lime.

Today's Symptom's: Still in pain from tooth extraction 3 days ago. Took 1 Lortab. Can't wait to be over this.

Day 50 - Juice Feast

April 21, 2010

Weight: 130.0

Today's Juice's:

2 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast: 30 oz. apple, celery, carrot, chard, kale, mint, cucumber.

Lunch:vegetable broth.

The Sun is Shining, Blue-Green Algae and probiotic

Dinner:30 oz. grapefruit, orange, mandarin, lemon, lime

T. Raw Honey

Today's Symptom's:face is slightly swollen and very painful. Still having to take Lortab. But, OTHER than that I feel really good! Less coating on tongue. Mostly stuff on the back of my tongue.

Can't believe it's been 50 days! I read something today about a girl who cured her Psorias juice feasting and that it took her 10 weeks. I hope....

Day 49 - Juice Feast

April 20, 2010

Weight: 130.0

Today's Juice's:

Breakfast: 30 oz. celery, apple, carrot, kale, chard, green cabbage, cucumber, dandelion.

The Sun is Shining, Blue-Green Algae and a probiotic and a multi vit. and min.

Lunch: 22 oz. grapefruit, naval orange, cara cara orange, mandarin orange, lemon, lime.

2 oz. wheatgrass

Dinner: 30 oz. celery, carrot, cucumber, broccoli stems, green cabbage, beet w/greens, ginger, dill, garlic, nama shoyu, kale, green pepper.


Today's Symptom's: Woke up at 2:45 a.m. in agony and didn't take another Lortab for fear of too much drugs and on an empty stomach. Suffered through with a heating pad. My wonderful husband made me my breakfast juice at 6:30 a.m. so I could take one with the juice and then finally got some rest and relief. Took another pain pill at 6 p.m. I feel really good. Don't feel like I'm juice feasting at all! Tongue not as gunky anymore.

Well, I went to an OB GYN with my husband and got full exam. B.P. 98/60 Weight: 131 (with clothes on, I guess my scale is right?) He did a pap smear and the Doc said I look great and that my heart sounded amazing. He thinks that the chest pains and head pressure are just stress? *rolling eyes*

Last year (before eating raw) I was told I had fibrocystic breasts, well, that's now gone! He looked at my labia and said immediately that it was Lichen Sclerosis. NOT CANCER! I asked him if he was sure and he said 99% sure. He didn't even want to do a biopsy. He says it's an auto immune disease and that they don't know how you get it and that it's genetic and that there's no cure.
He prescribed me a steroid cream and told me to come back in a month. He told me that I would need to continue using it. That it would always flare up.
He told me that diet had nothing to do with getting it and that juice feasting wouldn't do anything either.

That is NOT an ACCEPTABLE diagnosis. Where is the hope in that?? How dismal!

By the way. I had to wait in his office for our first visit. On his desk was an open Diet Coke and a bag of chips and a microwave. As we passed his office on our way out he now had a box of Krispie Cream Donuts on his desk???

My Mom worked as a Histologist in a Hospital for 20+ years. Doctors die from all of the same diseases that they supposedly heal. Read The China Study by Dr. Campbell and Fasting and Eating For Health by Dr. Fuhrman.

Where can I go to see a true health doctor? One focused on addressing the causes of diseases and healing using food and herbs as medicine? That is covered by my insurance? *dreaming*

So, now what? I REALLY want to heal my labia. I want to be able to have intercourse again. Not acceptable to not have it ya know?!! What else can I do. What am I missing?

I have been using a BLACK OINTMENT that is made of:
Allantoin for comfrey leaves and root, juniper tar, chaparral, chickweed, plantain, marshmallow root, red clover blossoms, mullein leaves, golden seal root, charcoal and lobelia, wheat germ oil, olive oil, pime tar, pine gum, beeswax and lanolin.
AND..
COMFREY COMPOUND SALVE that is made of comfrey root, marshmallow root, mullein herb, American skullcap herb, black walnut hulls, white oak bark, lobelia herb and seed, st. johns wort flower bud oil, organic extra virgin olive oil and pure beeswax.
AND..
Another BLACK OINTMENT with:
Olive oil, beeswax, pine tar, chaparral herb, chickweed herb, comfrey leaf, golden seal root, lobelia herb, marshmallow root, mullein herb, myrrh gum, plantain root, red clover herb, and vitamin E oil.

I've heard that Emu Oil would be good too. But, I don't know?

Do you know of anything I could use or do?

Day 48 - Juice Feast

April 19, 2010

Weight: 131.6

Today's Juice's:

3 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast: 32 oz. carrot, apple, celery, dandelion, mint.

Lunch: 24 oz. grapefruit, cara cara orange, lemon, lime.

Dinner: 16 oz. cilantro, lime, kale, apple, cucumber, celery.

Today's Symptom's: woke up to chest pain and headache, but it always goes away after I get up. Had another big BM? Blows me away? Cleaner and cleaner tongue. Super energy! I feel REALLY good! I was the energizer bunny today!

I went in to the Oral Surgeon to have tooth #19 removed (the one that had abscessed.) Not fun to say the least. I had high hopes that my body could heal the tooth and the bone loss, but that tooth has been through the ringer. With a root canal, then oral surgery, and a crown for over 10 years. I wonder if that tooth was causing the chest pain and headaches?? That would be so cool if my symptom's went away now that the tooth is out?
I really LOVE the laughing gas. I love the high! The only discomfort I felt were the pinches of the anesthetic and the 20 minutes of tugging and pushing on my jaw! But, the gas made it bearable. :) I was strangely at peace. Despite the trauma, I felt peace. I really did.

They put in some cadaver bone into the hole to help stimulate growth and to prepare it for the implant that I will be getting in 4 months. I had some concern about that? I mean, can you get a disease from that? Then he stitched me up. I had to keep the gauze in my mouth for most of the day. It kept bleeding for a long time.

I picked up the prescription for the Lortab, even though I regret having to take any, but I'm glad I did because about 4 hours later I started to feel pain and even after that I was STILL in pain. So, I can't imagine how bad it would be without any pain killer! I didn't get the antibiotic but I did get the antibiotic mouth rinse that I'm supposed to do twice a day. Except, get this... they put SACCHARIN in it and blue coloring!!??? Saccharin is cancer causing??!! What the crap??!! What do I do? Oh, well...


Ya know, I've just been filled with joy today! Despite everything. I even made an appointment for tomorrow to get my labia biopsied! Can you believe it? I was talking to a good friend who said that I should just get it done to know EXACTLY what I have, so that when I am healed I can tell people what I healed myself of. At least I can know for sure and not wonder anymore. I didn't want to do it a year ago. But like I've been trying to explain, for some weird reason, I just am at peace about it.
I'm reading the amazing Man's Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl, a MUST read for every human being! How this man still could experience happiness while a prisoner in a concentration camp is just so incredible and has taught me so much. Run out and buy it!
I'm also studying the Book of Mormon, and as a family every morning we are reading the New Testament. The Scriptures just buoy me up and uplift me so much. I love the words of the Prophets and the love they had for us and the love of our Heavenly Father. He loves us so much! I know the Book of Mormon is true scripture and the Prophets did nothing but prophesy of the coming of Christ and repentance and Faith in Him. It also tells of Christ's visit to the ancient Americans and what He taught. If you love Jesus and know Him. You will love the Book of Mormon and feel of it's veracity and recognize His words. The Holy Ghost will manifest the truth of it to you, like it has to me. I know it is true! He lives! He loves us! He is the same yesterday, today and forever. He is a God of miracles. He is healing me and He can heal you.
I am a purist. I like to get to the root of things. I see things simply. If you keep the commandments(love God, love others like yourself and treat them like you want to be treated, be honest, be humble, be kind, serve others, give to and help others etc.) you will be happy in every aspect of your life.
If you eat food in it's natural state, the way they were created. Your body will be happy and you will experience true health.
If you detox and cleanse and give your body the rest that it needs to do so, your body will heal.

I don't know how to feel about tomorrow? I'm not afraid. I hope and pray that it's not cancer. And if it is, I will continue to do what I am doing and hold on to my faith and hope that what I am doing will heal me as it has healed countless others.

The Lortab is kicking in..................

Day 47 - Juice Feast

April 18, 2010

Weight:130.8

Today's Juice's:

2 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast:26 oz. grapefruit, cara cara oranges, tangerine, lemon, lime.


Dinner:42 oz. celery, carrot, apple, cucumber, beet w/greens, parsely, garlic, dill, ginger, red cabbage, broccoli.



Today's Symptom's: woke up with chest pain and head pressure! GRrrrrr!! But it's a beautiful, gorgeous, sun shiny day. Drank breakfast out in the sunshine then went to church, made our big Sunday pancake breakfast, went on a walk with the family in the warm sunshine.

Down side..I'm fighting the depression. No way to escape. No where to run. Have to face the music.

Day 46 - Juice Feast

April 17, 2010

Weight: 131.2

Today's Juice's:

4 oz. wheatgrass

Lunch: 28 oz. grapefruit, cara cara oranges, lemon, lime with distilled water

Dinner: 34 oz. carrot, apple, beet w/greens, cucumber, cilantro, lime, chard.

Today's Symptom's: Feel Great! Some head pressure. Got a lot done today. Tons of energy.

I found this online today:
at:http://www.womhealth.org.au/factsheets/vulva.htm

Pre-cancerous and cancerous conditions
Vulval intraepithelial neoplasia (VIN)
Like a woman's cervix, the tissue of the vulva can undergo abnormal cell changes. These changes are referred to as vulval intraepithelial neoplasia (VIN). Some cases of VIN are associated with the human papillomavirus (HPV), while others are thought to be due to irritation. If VIN persists for many years cancer of the vulva can develop.

Symptoms of VIN may include: itching and burning (DON'T HAVE THAT) in a specific area of the vulva; raised brown, red, pink or white lesions(YES); warty lesions(NO) or persistent erosions or ulcers(NO & NO). Treatment for VIN depends on the stage of the condition but may involve monitoring the areas as VIN can disappear on its own(THAT'S WHAT I'M HOPING FOR!). In some cases removing the abnormal tissue by surgery or laser may be required(UH-UH). Other treatments are being trialled and a vaccine against some types of HPV will hopefully decrease the incidence of HPV-related VIN in the future(DOUBT IT).

Vulval cancer
Vulval cancer is relatively uncommon, with just over 200 cases diagnosed in Australia each year (13). The majority of these cancers occur in women 50 and over. There are two main types of vulval cancer, those associated with lichen sclerosus (see lichen sclerosus section) and those related to VIN (VIN section). Symptoms of vulval cancer include: itching, burning (DON'T HAVE THAT) or pain in the vulva(YES); vulval skin that looks white(YES), feels rough(YES) or has a lump(NO); bleeding or discharge(NO) not related to menstruation (14).

Treatment for vulval cancer depends on how advanced the cancer is when diagnosed, the person's age and their overall medical condition. Early detection of vulval cancer is important as it improves the chances of successful treatment.

Surgery is the most common treatment for vulval cancer(NO WAY!). Radiation therapy(NO WAY!) and/or chemotherapy(HELL NO!) may also be used.

A vaccine for some types of HPV (which are linked to VIN and, therefore, vulval cancer) will hopefully reduce the risk of vulval cancer in the future(NEVER!).

So....what I have might be pre cancerous lesions or cancer.

How do I feel? Knowing that my husband has had a chunk of basal cell carcinoma cut off his face today and that maybe what I have is cancer too???

I feel sad, mad, HOW THE !@#$$$%^ did I get this?????, scared, depressed, frustrated, and Impatient. 33 months is a long time to suffer.

I know that cancer cannot survive my diet! No way! AND that there has been some improvement of my labia so far.

I know that God is a God of miracles. He has led me thus far.

I am doing the very best I know how to do. If there is something missing PLEASE let me know.

46 days and counting. I won't/can't stop till it's gone.

*tears*

Day 45 - Juice Feast

April 16, 2010

Weight: 130.0

Today's Juice's:

Breakfast: 24 oz. Red and green cabbage, carrots, apple, celery, kale, beet with greens.

Lunch: 18 oz. "Pineorple" Pineapple, cara cara orange, red delicious apple.

Mid-afternoon: 16 oz. Spinach, Kale, Parsley, Cilantro, Celery, Cucumber, Green Pepper, Chard, Lemon, Lime, & Ginger.

Dinner: 4 oz. wheatgrass
24 oz. papaya juice!

Today's Symptom's:woke up with the pressure again. Head and chest. Brought me low...another BM? What could possibly be coming out of me? Where is it coming from? Seriously.

Day 44 - Juice Feast

April 15, 2010

Weight: 130.0

Today's Juice's:

2 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast: 20 oz. broccoli, celery, carrot, cucumber, mint, kale, beet w/greens, red cabbage.

Lunch: 16 oz. carrot

Mid-afternoon: 19 oz. grapefruit, cara cara orange, mandarin orange, lemon, lime.

Dinner: 6 oz. papaya then,
22 oz. garlic, kale, parsley, green pepper, carrot, celery, green onion, apple, tomato.

Today's Symptom's: Feel Great!!! Much less dizziness. I did a ton today.

Worst thing about today was that my husbands latest skin check up found a spot with Basal Cell Carcinoma...again. Last time was in 2000 when I was 9 months pregnant with our 3rd child. AND...my abcess came back after chewing gum (healthy gum) today. I went in to the dentist and he said that the roots are broke off and that I need to get it pulled! Sucks!

Feeling blue, I know I need to focus on how good I'm feeling, then life steps in and says "Hello!!!"

Trying to hang on :(

Day 43 - Juice Feast

April 14, 2010



Weight: 130.0

Today's Juice's:

2 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast: 30 oz. Chard, romaine, spinach, cabbage, beet w/green, broccoli, carrot, celery, apple, cucumber, mint.

The Sun is Shining and Blue-Green Algae.

Juice from 1 Thai Coconut!

Lunch: PineOrPle! 24 oz. Pineapple, Orange, Apple diluted with distilled water.

Dinner: 30 oz. cucumber, celery, carrot, apple, kale, spinach, cilantro, lime.

Today's Symptom's: I was in a deep sleep when my Honey woke me up for scriptures, which is unusual because I usually hear him and my oldest son as they are getting ready for work and school. The first thing I noticed was this strong strange taste in my mouth? I couldn't tell what it was? I immediately took care of that by doing the usual 3x a day tongue scraping that I have to do. Boy, I can't wait till that's over with.

I actually felt good this morning. Can I just say, "HALLELUJAH!!" No chest pain! I still have dizziness though and can tell that I've been laying down for 2+ weeks.

I colored my hair, gave myself a mani and pedi, cleaned, did laundry, laid in the sun for 20 min., took care of my daughter, made my own lunch, went to Target, Good Earth, and Costco, picked up the kids, unloaded the groceries, made them their snack, made a dinner for a girl I visit teach and her family who just had a baby, made dinner for my family (so wonderful!), made my dinner, and called it a day at 6:30. I was exhausted and ready to get back in bed with my laptop and catch up on blogging for you!

Oh, I had a BM!! On my own!! Wasn't fun, wasn't pretty, and the smell? Well....I'll just leave it at that.

I forgot to mention that for the past 2 days I've had tiny itchy red spots on my lower legs. I didn't think it was anything, I just thought my skin was dry. But then last night I really looked closely and noticed the red spots. Can I just say that this detoxing thing is for real!

I needed a day like today! The sun was shining and everything was beautiful and it looked like how I felt. The tulips are coming up and the trees are starting to blossom and it's going hand in hand with my healing. I am a Pupa! And I can't wait to come out!

Day 42 - Juice Feast

April 13, 2010

Weight:130.0

Today's Juice's:

2 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast: 26 oz. Parsley, spinach, carrot, apple, celery, chard, kale.

Lunch: 24 oz. grapefruit, orange, lemon, lime with distilled water.

2 0z. wheatgrass


Ta-DA! My Honey took a pic of the veggies he juiced for my dinner so he could remember what he put in it :) He's become a pro Juice Man! Oh, How I love him!
So, I think I will be adding more pics for you guys! He's so awesome I'm tellin ya!

Dinner: 24 oz. celery, carrot, romaine, cabbage, cilantro, pepper, cucumber, spinach, tomato.

Today's Symptom's: It takes me a long time to fall asleep at night. I woke up and felt dizzy. Staying down for another day. I was a bit depressed because of it and that I still am not energized like so many other juice feasters are during their feasts. I still have a coated tongue, I have forgotten to mention that I've had cracked and dry lips for a while now, some chest pressure, weird pains here and there. About 10 minutes ago, while lying in my bed with my heating blanket and pillow on my tummy holding up the laptop, I experienced the strangest thing. Right where I have felt discomfort on and off in my chest it felt like someone was "massaging" the exact area. I paused and just went with it imagining that my body was doing some healing there. Words cannot express the sensations I have felt throughout my body. I suppose that my weakness and dizziness are all just signs that my body is getting down to the business of healing and that it needs all the energy it can get and doesn't want me up and about. (Cause it knows that I will do a ton, like I usually do!)

That's it folks! Just another day of laying here completely ignorant of the miraculous works of the body, all the while holding onto faith. OH, and getting an Internet and youtube Phd in Raw Food Cuisine and Fasting! :)

Day 41 - Juice Feast

April 12, 2010

Weight: 127.4

Today's Juice's:

2 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast: 30 oz. Beet w/greens, mint, carrot, apple, cucumber, kale, chard, celery.

Lunch: 22 oz. Grapefruit, orange, lemon, lime AGAIN cuz it's totally awesome! My taste buds are so sensitive and the juices taste amazing!

Dinner: 30 oz. Borcht juice! Beet w/greens, carrot, celery, dill, tomato, garlic, kale, red pepper, cabbage.

2 oz. wheatgrass

Today's Symptom's: More improvement of my labia!! Yes!! It's working!! I have about 20% improvement in my strength, but still don't want to get out of bed. Although I have to pick up the kids from school and take the girls to dance. Oh, and I still have a white tongue, and strong BO and the one I can't understand is gas???

I got out of bed, got dressed, did my hair, made up my eyes, wrote some checks to pay for my kids dance and piano classes, and made a barley-lentil soup, and salad for my family (they are vegan, but I give them lots of raw food too!) for dinner tonight. It felt so good to be serving them again for a change!I love my family more than anything!

I was feeling really weak again and funky standing there cutting veggies, like my body was trying to adjust to doing stuff again after laying in bed for 2 weeks, I felt so determined to get my strength back! I took a B-12, 2 probiotics, Blue-Green Algae, The Sun is Shining, and a vitamin-mineral pill with a bottle of mineralized water. I started to feel a bit better!

I picked up the kids from school, made them an after school snack which was a sliced apple and almonds for my youngest son, and a strawberry, banana, orange salad with walnuts Mmmm... for the girls and we were off to dance class. It felt so good to be in the car again out in the world! Too bad there was no sunshine. I NEED to get some rays for some Vit.D and warming of my soul sooo bad!
Plus, it aids in healing :)

After I got home I went straight to bed again. I think that was good enough for today don't cha think?

By the way, THANK YOU soooooo much for your support and words of encouragement. They are like little hugs for my heart! Please keep me in your prayers. I believe they really do make it up to Heaven and God answers them. He IS answering them. I am so very grateful!

Day 40 - Juice Feast

April 11, 2010

Weight: 129.0

Breaking the 5 day Water Fast!

Today's Juice's:

2 oz. wheatgrass

Break-Fast: I could barely drink 10 oz. celery, cucumber, cilantro, lime, chard, kale, apple.

Lunch: 16 oz. left over from breakfast.

Dinner: 16 oz. grapefruit, orange, lemon, lime diluted with distilled water.

2 oz. wheatgrass

Today's Symptom's: I could hardly sleep I was so excited to break my fast today! Last night I had heartburn again? Bad lower back cramps, gas, headache, extreme weakness and fatigue, very coated tongue, hard time falling asleep.

I decided to break my fast last night because of the extreme fatigue. I thought I would go through today as my last day, but when I needed my husband to take me to the toilet, I thought that I better use this last day before school starts to regain my strength. I'm glad I did. This morning I feel tired and kind of ill after drinking the juice. I was hoping to feel energized, but, oh well, I guess it's gonna take a little time for my body to adjust.

Day 39 - Juice Feast

April 10, 2010

Weight: 129.0

Distilled Water Fast Day 5

Today's Symptom's: Very weak. Menstrual like cramps, acid reflux during the night, gas, white tongue. VERY lethargic. Don't even want to watch t.v. or read or blog. Just....want......to.......sleep.

I cannot water fast past Sunday because school starts and I need to function. So, I will go back to juicing either tomorrow or Monday morning.

Water fasting is HARD! But, from all of my research VERY effective in deep cleansing.

Day 38 - Juice Feast

April 9, 2010

Weight: 130.6

Day 4 of Distilled Water

Today's Symptom's: NO chest pressure!! Slight headache. More strength! Last night I had acid refux? More improvement on labia! Yes!

Day 37 - Juice Feast

April 8, 2010


Weight: 130.6

Day 3-Distilled Water Fast

Today's Symptom's: No chest pain! Headache, lightheaded, weakness, white tongue, bad breath. Sleepy. VERY weak. Major effort to go to the toilet. Feel like I'm on a major pain killer or something. Weird pains today. My right ovary (I think) hurt, my liver, my lower back one side at a time, occasional pains in chest and head, stomach pains, weird gunk slid down my throat, my cheeks turned red, occasional small bouts of nausea.

I guess there's just MAJOR stuff going on!

EXTREMELY tough day! Hoping I will have more energy tomorrow.

Watch these vids on youtube.com:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXvrrot0hnQ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5K4-V1kAtIk

Wish I could go here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JRXyMTk053E

Day 36 - Juice Feast

April 7, 2010

Weight: 133.2

Day 2 of only Distilled Water

Today's Symptom's: No chest pressure upon awakening!Yes! Slight headache, not as coated tongue, weak, lightheaded, no appetite.

I just plan on staying in bed and reading and studying and learning and healing every second. As always, please keep me in your prayers. Please.

Day 35 - Juice Feast

April 6, 2010

Weight: 133.2

Distilled Water Fast today.

Today's Symptom's: Woke up again to strange chest and head pains. Very bad headache, terrible breath, light headed.

I stayed in bed ALL day. Spring Break is a good time to water fast since I don't have to get out of bed. My honey makes breakfast, the kids make their own lunch and play with their friends all day. I don't have to take or pickup anyone anywhere. There was left over dinner from last night so I didn't need to make anything. I stocked the fridge so Honey can make dinner tomorrow. Grateful that every one's okay.

Emotionally though...fasting is HARD. You do it alone. At least, I have no choice but to. No one calls. I think, no I don't know what they think?
You are isolated and suffering alone. No one can suffer for you. Pain and Looooooooon hours. Yet, somehow, I keep holding on to my faith in God and in my bodies ability to heal. I hold on to the day when I have overcome. I hold on for the day when I can rejoice in the blissful joy of experiencing freedom and vitality and health in this body beyond anything I can remember, and knowing that I have the power. I am powerful. I can do it. I will do it. I will heal.
Alone.

Day 34 - Juice Feast

April 5, 2010
Spring Break

Weight: 133.2

Today's Juice's:

3 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast: 33 oz. carrot, celery, cucumber, cilantro, lime, sunflower sprouts, red cabbage, dandelion, apple.

Today's Symptom's: woke to head and chest pressure. More Energy! Started my period (1 day early again like last month?) Slight numbness on head and face (old symptom from when I first got sick.) Less lightheaded, but lightheaded none the less. Kidney's hurt on and off throughout the day.

I cleaned my house from the Easter weekend disaster! Did laundry and made my juice's and the kids lunch and we went to go to a movie with some of their friends, but they were sold out so we stopped at the Health Food Store and I bought some more wheatgrass and groceries. Definitely had more energy. While I was there, I noticed a book called "FASTING AND EATING FOR HEALTH A MEDICAL DOCTOR'S PROGRAM FOR CONQUERING DISEASE" by Dr. Joel Fuhrman. I ended up taking the kids to a family fun center and started reading the book.

Dr. Fuhrman says, "Juice Fasting is not truly fasting; biochemically the body does not enter the "protein-sparing" fasting state. In this state the body conserves its muscle reserves and fat is preferentially broken down. This does not occur with juice fasting. Juice fasting also does not have the powerful anti-inflammatory properties of the pure water fast that are essential for recovery in autoimmune illnesses. Other benefits of total fasting include decreasing platelet aggregation and promoting other biochemical changes that help to prevent the formation of blood clots, which could cause a heart attack. These beneficial changes, so essential in a cardiac patient, as well as the significant lowering of blood pressure, also do not occur if even a small amount of carbohydrate in the form of juice is taken. The powerful detoxifying effects of the fast cannot be obtained by following a restricted or supplement diet. ONLY when there is total abstinence from all calories do we observe waste products being heavily excreted from the breath, the tongue, the urine, and the skin. Plus, the fast does not merely detoxify, it also breaks down superfluous tissue-fat, abnormal cells, atheromatous plaque, and tumors-and releases diseased tissues and their cellular products into the circulation for elimination. This kind of dramatic detoxification cannot occur with supplemented eating plans. Toxic or unwanted materials circulate in our bloodstream and lymphatic tissues and are deposited in and released from our fat stores and other tissues. And important element of detoxification is mobilizing the toxins from their storage sites. This occurs best and most efficiently during TOTAL fasting."

So, after reading that and also having been feeling more and more that I want to drink juice less and less. I am going to implement water fasting as well. I think I've done 2 days of water fasting so far. It sure make you weak and feel crummy, but I think this will promote quicker healing of my symptoms. But I have to say, that for me, not matter what ANY book says. Listening to my body is THE most important key. And my body HAS been wanting to water fast. So, here goes!

Day 33 - Juice Feast

April 4, 2010
EASTER!

Weight: 135.2

Today's Juice's:

Juice of 1 lemon in distilled water.

Breakfast: 32 oz. carrot, celery, cucumber, kale, mint, beet w/greens, apple.

2 oz. wheatgrass

Lunch: coconut water, pinapple, orange sorbet made in my Cuisinart Ice Cream Maker.

2 oz. wheatgrass

Today's Symptom's: Diarrhea last night from tea. STILL weak, lightheaded, woke up at 4 a.m. with my head and chest in a vice grip! Still get chest pains, dizzy, my right kidney hurt for a few hours this afternoon.

We watched Conference again today. I feel better in the mornings. I was able to make an Easter breakfast for my family and a raw Chinese cabbage salad for dinner. But, by nighttime I'm really stuck on the couch. I read on a fasting website that sometimes healing crisis can last a few WEEKS! Well, I'm supposed to sing in church next Sunday so I REALLY hope to be able to start feeling better VERY soon. Being miserable for so long is discouraging and I have been very short with my family this weekend. I hate that! I just don't feel good and am trying really hard to act normal for my family, but, I didn't fool anybody....

Hoping and praying.

Cried myself to sleep.

Day 32 - Juice Feast

April 3, 2010
180th General Conference of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.

Today's Weight: 135.2

Today's Juice's:

2 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast: 30 oz. carrot, celery, cucumber, cilantro, lime, dandelion, apple.

Lunch: grapefruit, orange, lemon, lime

Smooth Move Tea

2 oz. wheatgrass

Today's Symptom's: A bit stronger today. Still light headed and weak, stomach ache after drinking juice's, head ache feeling discourgagd in the evening....

Day 31 - Juice Feast

April 2, 2010
Good Friday.

Weight:135.6

Today's Juice's:

2 oz wheatgrass

Breakfast: 10 oz. carrot, celery, cucumber, spinach, chard, red cabbage, mint.

Lunch: Water from 2 young Thai coconuts about 2 1/4 c.

2 oz. wheatgrass

Today's Symptom's: chest pains upon awakening, very weak and light headed, my feet feel "squishy" when I stand up and walk on them (I actually noticed that yesterday coated tongue.

I felt in much better spirits today and actually got dressed and did some desperately needed cleaning, although I felt like I needed to be laying down. Still very, very weak.

Today my thoughts have been turned mostly towards Christ. Today He was hung on a cross for my sins. For you, and for me. XOXO

Day 30!! - Juice Feast

April 1, 2010
April Fools Day!

Weight: 135.4 (No Joke!)

Today's Juice's:

2 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast: 26 oz. carrot, celery, cucumber, chard, parsley, garlic, ginger.

Lunch: Juice from 3 grapefruits about 2 1/2 c. dilluted with distilled water to 4 c.

1 1/2 oz. wheatgrass

Today's Symptom's: Woke up to head ache and chest pain and some pains in my guts. Lot's of gurgling through the night, dry mouth, tongue still very coated, very weak and light headed.

I need to get my strength back. I need to go grocery shopping, I need to do laundry, I need to make dinner and clean the house. Well...I guess I just need to be patient. My bodies doin it's thing, or I'm dying? :-0