Day 61 - Breaking The Feast - Day 2

May 2, 2010

Weight: 129.8

Today's Menu: ;)

2 oz. wheatgrass

Breakfast/Lunch: 38 oz. celery, carrot, apple, zucchini, cabbage, red leaf lettuce, chard, mint, ginger.

1 avocado! SOOOOOOO good with paprika and Himalayan salt! De-LISH!

I came home from church and made a raw bread recipe. I can't wait till it's done!
Here is the video I got the recipe from:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jA8CNDVJ0rU

Dinner: Some delicious watermelon!

I feel wonderful! I woke up with chest tightness and head pressure but filled with JOY and GRATITUDE! I'm religiously putting on the Perrins blend cremes every night.
I know they will eventually go away and that I am healing. It's just going to take more time. Time I am willing to take! :)

Tomorrow I am going to go back to my aerobics class and get back into shape so that I can start teaching again.

I am going to sing at an old folks home tomorrow in our ward boundaries.

I have reached out to old friends and have made fun plans.

I have planned a family Spring party at our house.

I am singing with my daughter at church for Mother's Day.

I am going to a raw food pot luck on Tuesday and to my ward recipe exchange pot luck on Thursday.

I plan on going into the studio to lay the piano track for my 6th song and record the Spanish on the 5th song.

I have entered back into living life to it's fullest. Enjoying each and every day.
Choosing JOY and letting go of FEAR and TRUSTING in the Lord that He answers the prayers of the faithful.

I know that I can still choose to be happy no matter what happens the way that Viktor Frankle did in his book MANS SEARCH FOR MEANING.

Viktor Frankle was in a concentration camp, with NOTHING, not his degrees, his successes or accomplishments. Not a hair on his body or even a name just a number. Surrounded by filth, death, the dying, and diseased, not knowing where his family was or if they were even alive, alone amongst strangers, not knowing if he would live or die, without a SINGLE comfort, his freedom and dignity taken away, starving, beaten and insulted every day, frozen to the bone, working beyond strength, and yet........he CHOSE to be happy. Happiness IS beyond a shadow of a doubt a CHOICE!

I have faith which means that I don't know what the future holds, but I know that my Savior knows and that He loves me and knows what's best for me and that no matter what, as long as I am keeping the commandments and pressing forward and enduring to the end I will be blessed. The JOY that awaits in the next life is incomprehensible to us right now. I know that we must be tried. I know that like a muscle it needs the strain to be made strong. I AM STRONGER BECAUSE OF ALL OF THIS! I am being prepared for something. I don't know what....but God does.

I may never be healed........but I choose LIFE. I choose to LIVE it fully the best that I can. And if I keel over and die....then I will go to meet my Maker and know that I did the best I could and tried to live the best I could and kept the commandments the best I could. I submit my will to His and if His will is that I die, then it's what is supposed to be! Right?!

I HOPE that I will be blessed for taking the best care of my body as possible. I HOPE that I my prayers will be answered! I HOPE that all of my desires, dreams and wishes will come true. And I really do BELIEVE that they will somehow, someway, someday!

"Come what may....I choose to LOVE it!"

I choose JOY!